“I made promises to myself. I promised that I would not beg for attention anymore. I promised that I would stop sending group messages to people I missed the most, that I would not create group chats, or organize parties. I promised that I would not ask for anyone's approval anymore. I promised to avoid annoying the people I called friends by asking them to give me advice. I promised to not look people in the eye to seek for a yes or a no before I take a step. I promised to not depend on anyone anymore. I promised to rather use crutches than ask my bros to lift me up when I got drunk. I promised to rather be sober all the time. I promised to be as cynical as I could be. I promised to not believe all the books, all the theories, all the laws, because everybody has flaws, everything has small cracks not everyone could see. I promised not to be easily swayed. I promised not to deny unpleasant truths, nor be comforted by lies. I promised not to trust anyone, but myself.
I promised to keep my promises until my last breath.”